Today our adoption agent let us know our court date of June 17th has been scratched. There are reasons beyond any of our control, which is just like this entire journey. The gift of powerlessless and surrender has brought with it immense ache. Thinking we were going to meet our girls face-to-face, now not knowing when we'll be resubmitted to court. My little sister, Ash, texted in response to my news, "Oh bummer! What a roller coaster." I replied, "Look at me!!! No hands!!!"

As one who finds great comfort in holding on, the Father has thrust me into a surrender only the journey of adoption could bring.

Waiting in mystery.

Again...right where He wants me.